the past 7 years, in conversations

[2000]

(against all odds playing in the background)

moks: hmm, what do you think is the story behind this song?

leah: huh? e di sila, tapos they're about to break-up, but the other one doesn't want to break-up.

moks: i don't think that's it e. i think good friends pa lang sila. and the guy is crazy in love with the girl, but it's hopeless.

leah: ha? that's nowhere in the song.

moks: no, listen. the guy's so scared that if he tells her how he feels, she would push him away.

leah: e bakit "you coming back to me is against all odds..." how can she "come back" kung hindi pa naman sila?

moks: because for the guy, if only he'd be able to tell her how he feels and still keep her friendship, even if she doesn't love him back, that's already "coming back". that would be enough.

leah: hmmm...

[2001]

moks: when are we getting married?

leah: i don't know.

moks: hmm, let's see. you'll graduate in 2004, take the bar in 2004, be a lawyer by 2005. we can get married late 2005!

leah: that's too soon! ni hindi pa ko naka-one year practice non!

moks: ok, 2006! let's get married in 2006!

leah: pwede.

[2002]

leah: tama na 'to. let's end this now. this isn't right anymore. please leave.

(the next days, weeks, months later)

moks: can we please talk?

leah: about what?

moks: about us.

leah: there's no more us. there's nothing to talk about.

[2003]

leah: you have to let me go.

moks: i can't. i don't want to.

leah: if there is to be any hope of us getting back together, you have to first let me go.

moks: no.

leah: God has to have all of you and all of me first. we have to be ok separately first. please, let me go.

[2004]

moks: i already let you go. you told me to let you go.

leah: i want you back.

moks: i can't. i've decided to be with ----- now.

leah: i want you back.

moks: i'm sorry.

(long, silent walk home)

moks: you will always be who you are to me.

[2005]

moks: (txt) u still in the office?

leah: (txt) yep.

(a few minutes later)

leah: what are you doing here? it's so late.

moks: it's my birthday. i wanted to see you.

(pause)

moks: i needed to see you.

[2006]

moks: hey, how are you? how's the obsession over ----- coming along?

leah: i'm good. i'm getting the hang of getting over him. this would be quick.

moks: haha! let me know when you get there. there's a treasure to be made from that knowledge.

(some months later)

moks: will you be mine?

leah: i already am.

[2007]

moks: i know that there is no one else i would want with me on the journey God has in store for me than you. so i would like to ask you, will you marry me?

leah: yes.

[2008]

(two weeks from now)

moks: i do.

leah: i do.